Friday, October 17, 2008

SIGH. That pretty much sums up how i'm feeling right now. I'm in the mood for whining so that is just what i'm gonna do. You see, my parents, grandparents, sister, and friends remebered my bday, but that's it. NONE of my aunts, uncles, cousins, or other grandparents so much as called. It wouldn't bother me if it wasn't for that fact they all remembered my older Sisters. My cousin even got my sister a desighner one of a kind bracelet. Thoughtful. She didn't even call me. I know it shouldn't bother me. My mom's family just likes my sister more than me. I'm very opinionated and they don't seem to like that much. I defend myself so they do stuff like ignore me at family parties while they talk up a storm with my sister. I'm not mad at my sis. She tries to help but there is only so much she can do. I try to fix it but my aunts and cousins, espeically steph and her kids, are da bomb when it comes to holding grudges. They used to do the same thing to my mom, so she understands, but instead of sympathizing, all she does is go on and on about how much worse she had it. GRRRR! Maybe she thinks it helps me but it doesn't. Oh well, at least she tries. I do all i can to make sure everyone is happy because that is how it should be. They should all be happy. In the end, if everyone else is doing good, then my happiness just doesn't matter than much. It's perfect for me. I love to have fun but i always feel guilty for being happy. Why should i be happy? I have done nothing to deserve it.

So that's enough of my whiny post!! O, but i just have to say i feel bad for my friend. The legiments in her leg are tearing so she has to walk on crutches. Her bag is heavy so i carry it to the bus stop for her. She is a grade older than I so i don't see her much, but when i do i carry it for her. Hey, That's what friends are for!!

So that's it. I'm done whining. Sorry about that. 

EDIT: My whining worked! lol. Ok, so almost everyone forgot, but guess what arrived in the mail? A present form Steph. Sure, it may just be one aunt, but it feels good to know not everyone in my fam hates me! Yay! It was the best present ever. You see, my fam on my mom's side is Italian. My aunt went to Italy for a summer to hunt down our family tree. For my b-day, she made book marks with out fam's history on it! They also have pictures of the town's our family is from. Amazing. It took a lot of work and it was the most thoughtful gift a person could have ever given me. Beautiful. Thanks Steph! just for remembering.

And now i feel so selfish for whining. Dang it. Grr. 

Aw well! at least i don't feel quiet so hated lol! 


Allison said...

Ugh i know what you mean i feel like whinning right now too! stupid james! and i rembered your birthday cuz i luv you the most!

James said...

Ok, you have done tons to deserve happyness. And with the family, you just need to understand they are your family, they may not treat you in the best way possible, but they do love you. That is what counts, and have u ever tried telling them or confronting them about how u feel? Seriously though, you are a good person and have done so much to deserve to be happy. Just realize that although they may do wierd things, you do not need to be effected as much as you are saying you are.

Samiee babby! said...

AHHHH Clarice! HAPPY BIRTHDAY.... sorry it's a little late. Haha. I hope yer brithday was amazing. And its all good none of my family called me on my birthday either. :) TTYL. Byee.